I have mixed feelings about writing this post. Part of me wants to hide behind "everything is fine."
It did not and it was so excruciating, I had to go to the ER after school one day. Tests were taken and I needed to have surgery. With this surgery, I could not lift my daughter for a whole month. I missed about a week of school in September I believe...
This should have fixed the problem BUT I still had pain. My doctors said I should lose some weight and that the pain should improve. It was in my back, abdomen, and hip. One day I was fine, the next I couldn't walk. If I did any activity at all, I would suffer the next few days. I was running on empty at school and at home. Everyone thought I was tired because of the new baby but it was more than that. Anyone who has had chronic pain understands how draining it is.
I went on a diet and lost 37 pounds and I still had hip problems, back problems, abdominal pain, and my knees and ankles hurt. I went back to the doctor. More tests...nothing. More tests, more waiting...nothing.
In the meantime, I gave the children my all. I pushed forward because this had to be temporary.
In May my rheumatologist diagnosed me with Fibromyalgia. After a year of chronic pain, I was excited to be diagnosed. It explained why I was having more difficulty concentrating (Fibro Fog). It wasn't the sleep deprivation. I knew it wasn't because I've had many periods in my life when I was sleep deprived and I could still concentrate. I've worked two jobs or taught and went to school for the majority of my career. It's only been the past few years that I have just taught. Having the diagnosis meant that I would live. It's not life threatening. More importantly, I wasn't crazy. There really is a problem. It wasn't all in my head.
June- Reality hits...
Fibromyalgia doesn't go away.
The pain doesn't go away.
I have to learn to live with it.
In my case activity aggravates it. Then end of school caused me to be in major pain where I could barely move.
My doctor put me on a medicine when I was diagnosed and I was hopeful. I felt better the first week. Then the pain retuned. I talked to my doctor and he said I had to wait six weeks for the medicine to work. It's been almost six weeks and I have still been in pain. That's why I haven't posted as much as I would like. My doctor prescribed a second medicine and it's only been two days but I am hopeful.
If it doesn't work I pray for the strength to give my all to the children and my daughter. I have to be more conscious about the physical aspects of my job and ask for help from time to time (very hard for me to do). I have to keep pushing forward.
If you know any teachers with this, I would love hear their story.