I Wrote a Children's Book... Now the Hard Part.... Waiting

I almost didn't write this post because I don't know what is going to happen yet...

That's probably why I am up at 3:28 in the morning.  My mind won't shut off.

Last summer, I finally sat down and wrote a children's book.  (Right now I am keeping it secret because I am hoping it will be published.)   Publishing a children's book has been a dream since fifth grade after my teacher had us write a book in class. 

Why did it take so long to actually write the story?  I think it really comes down to it just wasn't my time.

Right now I have a darling daughter who is so dear to me in so many ways.  The idea of being able to pass on a little piece of me after I am gone is so important to me.

Last March I was in the hospital for a week and it just made me realize how fragile life truly is... I'm fine now.  Thank God!

Also, five years ago, my dearest dad passed away unexpectedly.  Losing him was devastating.  Recently my dad's aunt and uncle (who are in their 80s) mailed my mom and I letters dad wrote.  Tears cascaded down my face when I read letters my dad wrote his grandmother as both a child and as an adult.  Even though dad is gone, His voice lives on through his writing.  One of the letters was from 1957 when my dad was 10 years old.  It was so special to have a small snapshot of him when he was a kid.  Other letters he wrote when I was about 5 or 6 years old.  He mentioned me in the letter and his love for me shone through.  It was just so special in so many ways.

Words are so powerful.  I collect vintage books and when I hold one, I can't help but wonder about where the book may have been 100 (or more) years ago.  Who held it?  What did the house look like?  Back then, before computers, books had value.  If you really think about all the work that went into producing a book compared to today, it was really laborious.  I respect the effort that went into the process.

Fast forward to today.  Now there is so much on the market that the labor goes into the marketing aspect or book sales.  I haven't published a book yet but I have been researching the process.  When you do that, it seems so overwhelming and so hopeless.  This is probably why I waited a year before even considering submitting my manuscript.

This summer I finally buckled down and set a goal to submit it to publishers.  Last year my school had a guest reader who is a local author.  She was fantastic and her book was well-done.  I looked at the publisher of her book and submitted my manuscript.

They accepted it BUT come to find out it was a hybrid publishing company.  It was a lot like self publishing but with some extra services.  The acquisition specialist was so kind and complimentary.  After a few days she sent me a proposal.  It was so exciting!!!  After reading it though, there was A LOT of upfront costs that I would have to pay.  I seriously contemplated going through with it but it just isn't in our budget right now.  My husband is so supportive.  He trusted I would make the right decision.  I have a small child and to pay out that kind of money and be on a shoe string budget isn't fair to her...so I decided to decline the offer for now.  The company was so understanding and kind.  If the traditional publishing route doesn't work out, I will probably save up and pursue publishing with this company.

Even so, I was heartbroken thinking about giving up my dream.  Instead of researching publishers, I decided to narrow my search and research local publishers.  I was shocked to find a mid-size publisher in my city.  I looked online and read reviews and everything looked promising.  I decided to call and ask if they required their authors to pay up front before I submitted my manuscript.  The person I spoke with explained that this was a traditional publisher and they did not do that.  I was elated.

After a district math training, I went home and worked on a query letter and submitted my manuscript.  Now I am sitting on pins and needles.  She told me they would probably let me know in about three weeks.  In my mind I know this is short in the publishing world because a lot of places say it will be months, but it feels like forever.

It has only been a few days.  This publisher only accepts about three authors a month.  I know my chances are slim.  I just want it so badly.  With school starting back up, I told myself if this doesn't work out, I will make submitting my manuscript to publishers my summer job.

I wish I could tell you a little about the story and the publishers.  Unfortunately, it's a secret until I know if this book is accepted.

If I did get a deal, it would be so much fun marketing it.  I dream about going to the International Literacy Association Annual Convention and selling my book.  I dream about going to local stores and talking up my book.  I dream of setting up a booth at craft fairs and selling my book.  But most of all I dream of reading it to my daughter and then listen to hear read it.  I would love to video her reading it and post it on youtube.

Only time will tell...